:( :( :(

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you

Damn, im suppose to go KL, but no one is going and mom wont let me go alone... haiz... I miss someone right now though his having fun wathcing movie now, but he will bring me when im there... holiday sucks la nothing to do one... oh Happy Birthday Avril...

Woohoo 17 more days till im official 18 and no more under age bisnes hehehe... but too bad la i got to spend it in camp (National Service)

Started my day with morning jog arwn the neighbourhoob... breakfast eat alot... a packet of nasi lemak, Vege kuey(hai cai kuey), Apom and a bowl or Kuey Tiao Sup... nice.. Lunch i only took 2 pieces of bread, went out jln jln, dinner i eat early cz i wanna follow the schedule of the exercise so i took chicken floss bread from bread history and head home.... sent credit to him, after that he called me, damn i miss his voice... hmm... nvm will meet after NS ok... as for now im really bored, listening to Enigma, they rock!!! love the songs....

I was kinda dissapointed when i got the Twilight book... I wanted the cover which an apple one but it was out of stock so i got a smaller one yet cheaper one... Which mean my collection is not complete anymore... I've finish reading the first book already and i want the second book. Phew Christmas is getting near. I got so many things i want, i want the book, i want a purse, i need to buy stuff for NS, buy some cloth as well... Im broke la..

. The books looks something like that but the title is on the upper left... Nice book... I want the 2nd book... argh... My Christmas Present + My Birthday Present heheheh

Yeah!!!!!!!!! Paper finish d, so free... Time to enjoy liao... huahuahua planing to go watch movie nx Friday with friends. We all so crazy and took all nonsense picture, hahah fun times man... Im gonna miss skul... Bye Vain SMKAM.... No more pinafore/white shoe/socks/white shirt/ yeah...

hahahah...

From Left : Me, Yi Han, Paik Gaik, Lai Kuen...

I fully agreed that spending time with friends is such a nice thing... Yet you can actually keep yourself away from negetive though... phew... was in Penang... saw PJAY, miss them so much... the talk from Pastor Leslie was nice, but i didnt really pay attention coz i was kinda sleepy. hahah i follow the PJAY to Batu Ferringgi and makan after church coz Citra is going back Indonesia for good... haha nice to have them around... Sunday went Gurney... Wa, New Gurney was like Queensbay also... so confusing la... walk till leg pain lo... went to MPH n Popular and buy books lo... I got Twilight, but the small book and different front page lo... half way already... planin to buy the other 3 also heheh... anyway Thx for buying me the book...

Went to the Memorial Service last night, chit chat with my gang ( Andrea, Rebec, Avril) after that went home for late dinner in Sri Ananda Bahwan (Kulim Branch) near town area... Today was Seni, i drew someone playing kite, i didnt use colour but i use pencil... Went home, wanted to buy aluminuim foil, but then nvm d la... Then at home i dye my own hair Red Colour, result not bad, happy with it, (grrrr...) ops i havent eat my dinner yet, heheh paiseh lo...

Thats the result, heheh

Twilight Book Introduction...

Introducing the collection of "Twilight" books of 4



1st Book -"Twilight"





2nd Book - "New Moon"





3rd Book -"Eclipse"





4th Book - "Breaking Dawn"


p/s: pls do correct me if the book is not in a correct order, TQ

"Twilight" and the introduction of character

The first of the books, called "Twilight," is poised to become a movie, and there's little doubt it will be a sensation. "Twilight" introduces Bella, an awkward high school student who's moved to a small, rainy town in Washington to give her mother freedom to travel with her new husband, who plays minor-league baseball.
There, Bella meets the mysterious Edward Cullen and his standoffish siblings. Edward seems to hate her at first, though she can't imagine why. It turns out her smell is irresistible. Before long, the two are in love -- and Bella's life is at risk in more ways than one.
Maybe whatever makes Bella smell so good to Edward has been spritzed onto the pages of the millions of books that have been sold. Or it could just be that today's teens have an insatiable appetite for an old-fashioned romance, in which an often helpless beautiful girl is rescued repeatedly by a gorgeous man who never takes advantage of her despite his raging desire.
Whatever it is, there is something to these books. Never mind that they don't impress the literary snobs. The books are hard to put down, even when Bella is doing idiotic things -- or perhaps especially when she's doing idiotic things. (Click here for the debate: Does "Twilight" suck the brains out of teens?)
If you're not one of those fans sitting on fang's edge awaiting a cinematic introduction to the hunky Edward and disaster-prone Bella, here's an introduction to the stars and supporting players in the saga:

Bella Swan: She's a high school student who lives in Forks with her father, Charlie, the town police chief. Bella left behind her mother, Renee, in Phoenix. Bella describes herself as klutzy -- and indeed, does seem to fall a lot. She's also one of those annoying girls who thinks she's unattractive but nonetheless is pursued by many teenage boys and, of course, Edward the hot, hot, hot vampire. Kristen Stewart, seen in "Jumper" and "Into the Wild," plays Bella.

Edward Cullen: He's a 100-year-old vampire trapped in the luscious, glittering body of a 17-year-old boy who would have died from influenza if he hadn't been turned undead just in the nick of time.
A word about Meyer's vampires: In addition to being blessed with extraordinary beauty, which helps them capture their human prey, they sometimes possess a superpower, which is basically an exaggerated version of a former human strength. And, unlike most of the vampires you've heard of, "Twilight" vampires can withstand sunlight, but they avoid it because it makes their skin sparkle conspicuously.
Edward can read minds -- everyone's except Bella's. What's more, she is nigh irresistible to him. That "nigh" is important, because Edward does resist her. Again and again. And again and again and again. He also resists another sort of human-meat consumption, feeding himself on wild animals he catches in the woods.
Edward has the self-control of a monk, which explains why the mothers of teenage girls find him so darned attractive. Edward also drives a Volvo and occasionally carries Bella piggyback-style, something that by itself is probably worth the price of a movie ticket.
Robert Pattinson, Cedric Diggory in "Harry Potter," plays Edward. Some fans found him to be not gorgeous enough. I invite them to check their eyesight. That said, his image on the "Twilight" poster is icky and he should totally fire his stylist.

Charlie Swan: Bella's dad and the police chief in Forks. He's possibly not all that bright, because he never did figure out how to cook in all the years since Bella's mother left him. Bella has to prepare his meals for him -- something that adds fuel to the feminist argument that Bella is a throwback to a less enlightened time. Billy Burke plays Charlie Swan in the movie.
James: He's a tracker vampire who decides Bella is his ideal prey. Cam Gigandet plays the role in the movie. Rachelle Lefevre plays Victoria, his lover.

The Cullen family: Vampires generally travel in covens, and Edward's pretends to be the Cullen family, which is chock full of gorgeous, muscular and mostly noble "vegetarian" vampires.
Carlisle Cullen: The head of the family. He's also the Forks doctor; so good is his control over his bloodlust, he apparently can be surrounded by it without going all pointy in the teeth. He's negotiated a truce with a neighboring pack of werewolves (more on them in later books). Centuries old, Carlisle is trapped in the body of a super-handsome 23-year-old. He and his wife have adopted the rest of the Cullen "kids."
Peter Facinelli, formerly of the TV show "Fastlane," and husband of Jennie "90210" Garth, plays Carlisle in the film.

Esme Cullen: Carlisle's gorgeous wife, whom he "saved" after she attempted suicide when her infant son died. Esme dotes on Bella and her vampire children. Elizabeth Reaser plays Esme.
Rosalie Hale: The book describes her as beautiful, even for a vampire. But poor Rosalie has a rough backstory: She was betrayed by her own fiancé, raped and left for dead in the streets. Carlisle turned her into a vampire. Nikki Reed plays Rosalie.

Emmett Cullen: He's big and burly, and has the distinction of being mauled by a bear before being turned into a vampire. Kellan Lutz plays Emmett in the movie.
Alice Cullen: Edward can see into minds, and the petite, beautiful Alice can see into the future, sort of. She and Bella are best friends, and Alice really enjoys planning parties, shopping and doing her own homemade version of "What Not to Wear." Ashley Greene plays Alice.
Jasper Hale: He's Alice's husband, and his gift is one of empathy and charisma. He can calm people down, which helps when Bella is around. Jasper is tall, muscular and full of scars from fighting young vampires. Jackson Rathbone plays the part in the movie.

Jacob Black: He plays a larger role in later stories, but in "Twilight," Jacob is a young Native American pup with a crush on Bella, which she takes advantage of to learn more about the mysterious Cullen family. Taylor Lautner plays Jacob, who is the son of Charlie Swan's best friend, Billy.

TWILIGHT is an action-packed, modern-day love story between a teenage girl and a vampire. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother re-marries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Edward is a vampire, but he doesn't have fangs and his family is unique in that they choose not to drink human blood. Intelligent and witty, Edward sees straight into Bella's soul. Soon, they are swept up in a passionate, thrilling and unorthodox romance. To Edward, Bella is what he has waited 90 years for - a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when a clan of new vampires - James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre) - come to town and threaten to disrupt their way of life?

ABOUT TWILIGHT: Based on the #1 New York Times Best-Selling series with over 17 million books in print by Stephenie Meyer, TWILIGHT is a cultural phenomenon, with a dedicated fan base that eagerly awaits this movie. There are over 350 fan sites devoted to TWILIGHT, and it has been chosen as the New York Times Editor's Choice, a Publishers Weekly Best Book of the Year, Amazon's "Best Book of the Decade...So Far", Teen People's "Hot List" Pick, and The American Library Association's "Top Ten Best Book for Young Adults" and "Top Ten Books for Reluctant Readers," among others. Critically acclaimed director Catherine Hardwicke brings to life this modern, visual, and visceral Romeo & Juliet story of the ultimate forbidden love affair - between vampire and mortal.

That book is quite interesting, im thinking of buying the first book call "Twilight" yet the price is ok but im still thinking of it. Due to the fact that i have to finish the frist book to buy the second book. Was just wishing that someone can buy me the book as my X'mas or Birthday present. Next year i have to go for National Service i can bring it there to read.

Today did science paper. Went out with Lai, she drove her mom's car without licence, dang... I dont even dare. Phew...Went to that "jerk" house, just pass by his house. Man he is such a cheater bug... hahah... lolz I need to relax man, my dogs are too noisy, i need to go to place where i can be near to nature, sound of flowing water, birds, tress... Havent been well lately... What to do? Or maybe i need to read some books, listen to some soft music. Dang but my dog is way too noisy for it...

Current mood
-Sad?
-Not in a good mood
-Lazy
-wanna do something but dont know what
-slightly pissed off but not angry
- miss some frens

Was crying half way while you call... At that time you were not the one i want to talk to. i was already talking to someone before you call..sorry. Im just expressing my sadness so i just cry it out coz i don't want to keep it inside, it hurts if i dont cry it out. I dont anyone to know that i cried... Yeah i've been emotional lately. I need time to be alone and i do need some insturmental music to calm down my mood. Guess i will take another half to 1 year to heal this bleeding wound again, its just not my year. The guys i fall for will nvr fall for me. But for me to let go of him right now is not easy. I miss his everything, miss his messages, his voice T.T... haiz... Im suppose to hang out with friends so that im happy but due to SPM all cannot go out or no transport. hmm no worries 6 more days of paper. ^^ December is coming soon woo hoo

Let's see
- After SPM - Kulim Church Member go Dr Chew's hs
- Dye my hair - yes will do but what colour?
- Ay Camp - yes im going
- KL - Is mom gonna let me go?
- X'Mas - aint in the mood for that
- National Service - New frens... etc
- Bday - 4get about it

I know you're reading this also ( you know who you are), whatever you read here stays here ok, dont talk to me about it or ask me about it. Its better you take care of other ppl ok, Im not walking alone yet im walking with someone as well. So dont worry about me already. Im doing fine. No matter what im still me and i will still go to church. No worries... I know you concern but thx anyway... GBU

It was last 2 night, i msg him telling him that i miss him and i cut my hand, at night when i was sitting on the sofa looking outside, i felt that it was his bike passing my house, my bro said that it was a Lagenda X but im not sure, i got a feeling that its him, but he still ignore me. I really do miss him, but no point missing him anymore. What a jerk. He cheated my feelings... T.T... Totally ignore me, my calls, my sms... I know he will read but ok, i will take it as his credit expired and i will never msg him for the mean time... I will see what happened after SPM... As for the next paper i may not gonna see him anymore due to that his in science stream so different paper. Haiz. Make me miss him more...I wont hate him but since he ignore me i might as well also ignore him and pray for him... God knows what im doing...
But i know God is good all the time and His always beside me. I need YOU, LORD...

FRIDAY- went movie with naughty boy, makan, back home b4

SATURDAY- church

SUNDAY- prepare table in exam hall, stick paper bla bla bla. he sent me home. Lai got jealous cz i hug him ( jz to make Lai jealous). spend some time together b4 going home. at night go MCA dinner function ( K'ok competition) kesian the judges didnt get to eat. huahauhua

MONDAY (today) - holiday as in a preparation for SPM. settle everything, get my uniform iron, shoe and socks, stationary, etc

Lolz tomorrow's paper finish 4.30pm? miss Naughty boy, anyways can sent me home? lazy to walk la. Bringing my phone to school but not into the hall.

p/s: naughty boy, after SPM dont 4get what u told me ya. lolz i will remind you... XD
as for SPM n STPM students. All the best, DO you best, pray b4 you do your paper... GBU

Hey i can see that you like Thiva ok, just admit it, if happened that he like someone that you know ah, you get jealous ah? hmm better dont let you know or else im gone. hmm few days ago was doing laundry and mom's dress was stain, instead of being clean i go and bleach it and end up spoiling the whole dress, sry mom.

Today was consider last day of skol, but sunday have to go skol to arrange the damn table. yoh susah je. why dont they just do it today? i bring my phone to skol, who day sms only huahuahua, teacher also didnt teach d, did some maths exercise... go for whatever thingy for SPM one. lol 5 more days man... scarry All the best poeple...

Loving my phone!!! huahuahu... Phew. so bored lately, teacher also didnt teach d. COuntdown to SPM man.
Haiz i email you all but only got 1 reply one. so sad la.

DEC:
- Dye my hair
- Ay Camp?
- Go KL
- Advance Birthday Party
- Andrea leaving
- PLKN ( National Service) Where?
- Christmas Celebration
- New Year 2009 ( should be in NS by that time?)

Haiz

today went to school also waste time only. most of the student went for ceramah, tomorrow is our turn(chinese & indian) bringing my phone to school. new phone not bad, nice to use lo. love it. suppose to get a ride home but wait till pek chek d so don wan d la. seeing those ppl whom i don like also geram d, so end up walk home la. then came Lai Kuen and Thiva. for what? dont care la. dad went meeting. so left me bro n mom at home. simple dinner. facebook saw shaun's profile so added him, yet with Youth Alive picture! make me feel so T.T coz cannot go...

Finally, i officially annoused that i owened that T808 at hands, nice nice phone!!! woo hoo... got new number also. Dad thought of changing also. Hmm. Love my phone... But the touch screen not to good lo(abit cacat) got tv, so means nx time got camp i bring my phone then i can watch tv d. Yeah... blog later, going out for dinner liao...

Morning went to church, not much poeple. After lunch went home. Sleeep, went out check phone price,do some house work then went out to check on the PHONE again, in that shop not much of selection, there's the fake N95(Cousin USing) nice la but so thick/big, if i use ah look so "Cho Lo". So decide to take the phone(pictured)

It's call Anycool. Modal T808,It's touch srceen, dual sim, TV, etc but no 3G(not important), Price is about 450 and those without TV is 350. I will ask my cousin to help me buy coz he knows the boss there and can get cheaper i guess? Hope i can get the phone by 2molo. I don't think there's theme for it so its ok la. Cant w8 to get my hands on that phone...

Guess the PMR students are having much fun in Youth Alive now. Too bad mom didnt let me go. Haiz. Stuck home go church. They all have fun with all the friends in Youth Alive. hahah =.=''' haiz. nothing much happen w8ing for my phone and wanting to buy new pants and shirt for New Year.. phew cant w8

It was just a normal chat and suddenly bump into a....... "BOOK"..........starting as Julia, Abraham and Fanny. Each represent a person which i don know to name them. But only Julia and Abraham knows this, Fanny was not there but somehow invlove. It was rather a triangle love story. Cant said it's fighting. Julia just hope all the best for Fanny and Abraham. 3 of them will be good friends. Abraham and Fanny was closer before Julia came in. But due to some problem, Fanny and Arbraham both argeed to take one step back. Both girl was jealous. Julia dont know who to trust but after talking to Abraham, Julia decided to trust Abraham. But still Abraham and Fanny is closer compared to Julia. Abraham told Julia to take him as a friend. Yet Julia was so sad that she tell herself maybe she shouldnt like Abraham at the first place. Abraham sort of told Julia that she make a few wrong choice and hope that Julia wont repeat it again.. Wao, thats really hurting but thats the trust i think? (*snift*snift*) Think Julia will slowly let go of Abraham somehow and wish all the best for her to good freinds...


Note to Abraham : Julia will slowly let you go and wont want to be in the middle of this and will take you as friends. ( Friends are Friends forever) will see you soon...

Its a true story....

Last night was not feeling well, so today didnt go school even though i feel much better but im still having the dizzyness. lolz. Woke up from phone call (mom) due to that i need to open to gate to let my dog come in ( he ran out this morning ),then online lo, whole day was raining, lazy to do work also... Went out buy some bread and junk food. Dad went to meeting so now mom cooking. cheh today nothing much to update lo.

WHat can i say? 10 out of 40 students? Cool huh? But its nice to study under that kind of sutuation, especially during maths period, asked Liyana to teach me some stupid Q which i don understand...I was feeling slighty abit dizzy during class. What a day. Eat extra today, seems like i got such good apptite,Pi Yu and Yi Han didnt come (leave me alone in school / they lazy to come). Before class, nothing to do so went to talk to form teacher and guess what? I got CEMERLANG for my kelakuan for my SIJIL BERHENTI SEKOLAH (pssst: dont tell anyone). Disayang oleh form Teacher hauhuahua. His a guy... Lolx. During last period (BM) Thiva was making Lai Kuen jealous by saying " I love you" to me outside the class coz teacher not teaching, crazy, but i just smile. His funny anyway, they are not together, I think Thiva is only joking with Lai Kuen but seems like she's taking it seriously but she is not admitting it. Dont bother much about it. Walk home, weather was rather windy. Upon reaching home Lai happen to be driving a motorbike and asked me to follow her but i just shake my hand and she went. At home, no lunch, was feeling dizzy again, after finish checking mail, went to rest. Half way rainy, got up and unplug all the soket. Went back to bed till 6. As usual open the gate for mom. Watch abit of TV, get some file transfer of SCIENCE from Jerome. After that went to bed and told mom not to cook dinner. (COUSIN)Bro in law came to fix the main cable coz yesterday somehow the lighthing strick and the cable was burned. After fixing, dad sent him back ( his car is still in the workshop due to the accident ) sambil tapau dinner. Now waiting for dinner. So get to rest from studying today which means 2molo will have to study 2 subject... 2 more week... T.T ...

Walk back from school alone, the wheather was rather cloudy... Reach home, didnt see any packet of food, which means mom didnt buy lunch for me lo. So i cook "Mi Sedap" sambil makan sambil check mail. Check half way got IM from ronald. Long time didnt talk to him in MSN d. So chit chat abit, talking about how am i, so on... But so far not much of them talk to me also la. Well cannot call or sms ( No Phone) at least a card? Email? hmm, actually one thing about AY is that (my own view, not mend to offend anyone) AY seems to miss communicate with people around them and cost them to feel like how i feel... example: how you guys ever ask Melody Tan why she left AY? I guess i feel the same as her also. Dont just think for yourself. Lol as if im so pro to tell people this? Im only 17. Sorry if i offended anyone. Just telling the truth. Whoever read my blog they will know what im going through now. AS for now, i think i will come after SPM...

I wonder if anyone reads my blog? hmm Its doesnt matter, guess no one understand what im crapping anyways. 2 more weeks till SPM, how nice if i could relax? haha but no way. So good they can go YouTh Alive... When i ask them, they all said dont know, not sure, depends. See now? What the heck is this man. Pissed off!!! Well, i got my own point of view, so what if i can go? It makes no difference at all. Since people are forgetting me already, i also wanna get lost already. I dont feel that i belong to that group anymore. Some more call friends? Naah dont think so. Think i should call them "someone whom i know"...
Life is not easy after all. Everyone knows that. You may face all sort of problems, is just the matter of how you look at it. Yeah i know im different from you'll. I think differently. Hmm for those who know me, they haven't really know the real me(maybe?)
Trust? Hmm who should i trust when I don't know the truth? Yeah the truth hurts. But thanks for telling me that also la (to who ever know she is). Where to place my trust? I don't know la. Just don't wanna talk about them too much. I guess i need to let go after all? Any comment from reader? or any wise though? Share with me. Thx

Who should i trust? you or you? why do i get different story from both of you? is there something that you both are hiding from me? hmm sometimes its better that i dont know too much, makes me sad if i know the truth. Should i let go? Or Keep it 1st? lol 23 days till SPM. Cant w8. Im gonna do this and that wooh oo...
Dont think im joining the AY camp also, but will see how things work. see if got anyone can convince me to go not?...
2molo church, guess im gonna play tha piano again huh? (wonder when only can get a piano)... Another week gone. Well at least i got a study schedule... bored man. Got to stand firm. Even though there are some things that i want but i cant get. But i know God still loves me right?

Aint i suppose to be studying? hahah well just bump into some intersting stuff so just go ahead and try it. End up doing few of the pic shown. Nice ah? Well i know there are 2 picture that are kinda cut. Sorry ya... but its nice anyway i like it alot.

Almost one month i didnt go to penang church already. wonder what is going on right there.?? Well it doesnt bother me also.(felt that they all dont remember me). since PF day till now also nothing much happened. almost one month didnt use phone. feel so different without communication. huahuahua free from spending money on AIR TIME... save for better usage. Since parents's not gonna buy it so soon anyway. SO saving for the sake of my holidays after SPM. woohoo cant wait... talking about church, i still prefer smaller church like Kulim church where everybody can know each other more, and be closer. Somehow i belong to Kulim Church anyway... Even though there's no i-care/AY/Choir/dinner? hmm. Well people might ask, where is all the youth then?? Hmm lets see. Owenson studying in Penang (Biz), Praveena went Russia (Med) My bro in Perlis (E & E)... others? hmm non active... sad. But im happy to serve Kulim Church as a young unpro Pianist ( always play wrong key/note)... No other class except Adult Class. Well small church ma. Church start 10.30am then after finish at 1.30pm terus go home already. Whao. How i spend my sabbath? Boring man... Wish to have a piano at home for practise ( which im planing to get one if i have enough saving ^^) wanna slim down also... hahah
Hey Queenee, nice blog you have ^^ like your blog alot...

trials result like what only... so far fail 2 subjects that is BC and MM... Sad.. hmm this few days also didnt go any where also la. Skol also normal. but out of the sudden that 2 of my class mate give me a new address - "sayang" lolz... anggap me as their gf ah? hahah yeah la sometimes i ingnore also la. i follow the same route with another class mate , they all fight. haha thats fun... the most fun part was after recess during SJ period... kinda get Saiful to talk abt his experience about.....(sensored) huahuahua... his story was interesting with additional action some more, there were Eliana, Liyana(Main), Mardiana, Adibah, Hanisah and Me. Saiful is abit mentally retarded, but he still can talk also do other stuff like normal people, just that he easily get "high" in such as way that he will laugh at his self .... (Wanna know why?)Lolz.. his expose to too much of unsuitable movie which we are still underage for it. But u will know once u get to know him... Liyana was the one talking the most. asking question this and that. Saiful is smart in this but he looks abit dump somehow. "Dont judge a book by its cover"...
Seni period didnt do anything la, help teacher arrange some notes and got 2 coupon of SAHSIA TERPUJI... actually we are having a KEMPEN AMALAN BERBUDI BAHASA. so in order to get a pin of it, we have to get 8 of the SAHSIA TERPUJI to exchange a pin. So far i have 6 already, 2 more that i get to exchange a pin. woohoo... hey PMR coming soon: Iise, Robert, Jeromy, SHaun, Vennessa, Andrea K and Andrea S... All the best yeah.. AS well as for SPM students: Me, Avril, Rebecca, Edwin, Hui Ern, Adrian Ong... May Gob Bless You

morning breakfast then go church, today i prepared bread+egg. somehow uncle Andy wee likes it ^^ hehe. i was ask to play the piano for song service but obviously still only limited one hehe... but i have fun playing yet learning then we hav LORD'S SUPPER... after that went home lo, do nothing la nap for awhile. learn beaxbot for fun, dinner was simple. finishing watching "Secret" hmm nice movie... how i wish i got a BF like "YEA XIANG LUN" and i wan to be "LU XIAO YU"... dad nag, Argh 2molo skol start already. 1 more month till SPM. No more fooling liao...

yoh, im suppose to be thinking as a teenager not a child... i wonder why should i be fussing around with youth alive? yeah i seriously wanted to go but mom dont let me to go coz its so near so SPM.. so unfair... haiz. wat to do? im big enough not to fuss about this... as for me, i still need to think more like an young adult... but im still acting like a child... whats wrong wit me? eish... don wan to talk about it d la.. make me no mood only...

remember in my last post i mention abt my key chain? here are some that maybe i could show u guys. sorry ya picture not clear coz i took from handphone camera. The Love suppose to be the key chain, and the key chain suppose to be the accesories for phone, but i exchange it. nice leh? (cheh prasan betul)

you might wanna ask me where is the other half of the love... hahah its not from a guy ok. its from a gurl. My best friend...

Today both also parents also abit not in the right mood. Y ah? don know la... Asal they dont scold us for nothing can d... hehe today's friday so wish everyone a happy sabbath in advance and get ready for SChool... Grr...

what happend to you la? Y ppl asking nicely you also like be syiok one? hmm oh hi ppl...
lets see.. hmm??? oh ok morning i woke up late lo, then go buy lunch d heheh... after lunch gotong royong clean the house, but i clean the room heheh, saw some "memories" Things from where who when? Its from YOUTH ALIVE.. yoh so sad la i cannot go... After cleaning then i sent some stuff saw him online and was having fun using writting and drawing, too bad la he got to go off for pool party :(... hmm after that i just redo some key chain for my new phone soon. Dei i saw the purse in one stop cute wei... hmm see la when only i go buy hehe... Mom fried some fries and my fav Chashew Nut... Yeah... half way eating while playing some games then now im here blogging. ok la thats all for Now...

dang. Woke up at 12 pass cz i slept at 2 yesterday doing nonsense... after woke up also didnt do anything terus online check mail.. play some games. Argh bored la... Miss my dear so much mUakz... dont bother to know who my dear is la, I wont tell one... lolz.. cheh nothing to blog about this days... later

hey you know what? someone actually found my IC. Thank God for that. Nyways sorry for not blogging lately, cz i don know what to write about also. Hmm. Sis gave me a nice bag which is white and gold in colour. Nice bag, i like it. can put lots of "rubbish" inside, hahaha. So now im browsing for a new phone and a new purse lo. So far none of the purse cought my eye yet but slowly, its not a rush anyway... Anyways bro's back for 2 weeks then going to Genting with his friends. Y mom dont let me go Youth Alive? hurpmmm... Mom said aft SPM only go lo... So now just have a relax for Raya lo... as for my muslim's friends, Selamat Hari Raya... Take care
Ltrz

21th

Woke up early, no breakfast. Go to police station to get my report then head to JPN Kulim ( Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara ) w8 there like dunggu. DOne with my new IC... No need to pay fine. Back home for Lunch... Hav a nice day

19th

Blogging, to me is just a place where i can express my feeling, not to say blog for the sake of blogging. Its all abt me, i don care wat ppl say abt it, meaningfull or meaningless. Im kinda unhappy because i got snatch by some useless ppl, i wonder why they wanna do that? cant the just work for the money? Yet they just get over with it and repeat the same mistake. Think we what? We work hard for the money also wat. I cant sleep at the moment, i just wanna express what im feeling right now. I cant do nothing much abt it also, all i can do it just to be thankful that im save from harm and danger. Even though im quite not in the mood. I wonder why i didnt throw the chair to them? guess im not that violent hahaha. Well at least im thinking on the bright side. Cant complain too much also. Thats life, we have to face it no matter whats. Ppl also change...
Sometimes i wonder why ppl are just so sellfish, asking for a favor isnt that hard right? Im just concern abt ppl around me. Just passing the msg isnt hard? you talk like you dont want to help only( what i feel la )..., haiz i don know la. If you dont want to help u can make excuses la, im sure if u tell me i will understand, dont debate with me, i dont like debating with ppl. If yes means yes, no means no... Whats wrong helping anyway? Im not talking bad about you guys, no offence. For me, if i can do it i will still do it. Im not self praising... But that is what i will do..

Snatch-Theft

I was out at "Honey", suddenly my bag, haiz... so shock... i tot was my fren... So malang... Damn it la... Phone, Money, IC also gone... luckily money also less than RM50... Im happy that the theft was dumb enuf to take my bag... but im glad im ok... Thx God...

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16th Sept

I cant believe wat i did today, i was doing my PD paper 2 and finish at 10am then me and my school frens walk out of the school, the secondary school guard don let us out say need wat permission bla bla bla. then we walk out from primary gate. lolz i was suppose to walk home but then i ask my fren to fetch me back, they all lazy to walk back to i use my motor, follow them here and there, lolz thats my 1st time alright. coz i got no licence yet so i don even dare to ride out also... end up hav to follow here and there and reach home at abt 11.30am... phew... was fun hahah... still crap at changing gear... cheh sure fail la my "L".

Aiya i feel so like goin to Prom, but sure no one ask me to go one... one of my wish was to go prom but since i tak dapat go then w8 lo... but i got no partner also la, hmm hav fun for whoever that is going...

Dinner

My home-made dinner... Maggie Mee Goreng... lolz nothing to do so jz upload the ingredient...

Ingredient : Black Soya Sauce, Oyester Sauce, Kicap, Oil, Egg(1), Maggie Mee and the seasoning...

wasnt a good one today, few days ago one nicer... heheh

14 Sept

Today was Science paper 1 n 2, ok lo can do la. 5 more papers to go. Get to chat abit abt guys with Lim n Chen... Hmm y guys hav to pujuk gurls leh? hmm how i wish i got one...

i hav a fren, his name is *****, we chat alot. hav common interest. Yeah not bad over all. wonder if i get to meet him? ^^ , he doesnt really online but i want to know him more... kinda miss chatting with him. i wish i could talk to him when im sad... but we only get to chat online... well how i wish i could tell u i miss you.. but no matter wat happen pls do take care of yourself k. Will see u online when we online together again...

13th September

( that my mom carrying her outside the house)

hey since my baby cousin is born for almost 2 months yet she is so "chubi"... her name is yun... i call her yun yun... she looks juz like my aunty... my mom was carrying her so take the peluang to snap 1 pic hahah... cute cute cute

13th September

Was not really a good day after all.... So sad our beloved Uncle John left us... Went to their house yesterday and today for the final service so means no church for us today... went to bukit gantung... sing few songs... that atmosphere was so saddening, i don wan to cry bahh yet cannot tahan d everyone was like **snift** **snift**, praveena was like shouting "papa, come back, dont go" haiz sad for her leaving to Russia soon... haiz... after that Mrs Chan belanja makan... Vegetarian for lunch... argh, but jz eat la. after that went home...
reach home also so no mood d... wanna blow up...

Mom say don let me go Youth Alive... Im saving money for it d bah... but never mind i still can go after SPM... lolz talking abt SPM. 2 more weeks to go... 8 more papers... haiz... 2molo no paper so can rest la... Monday is Science... haiz... so many things i wanna do but seems like my time also all clashing one... whats the heck is that OMG darn...

Lolz i wanted to sleep juz now, was hopin that it rains but i was like inside a oven, even tho i hav 2 fans blowing towards me but i still feel so hot like what nia... then i woke up see see raining... sengaja wake me up ka? lolz... tot of eating the swiss roll dad bought yesterday, damn was finish by lit bro, no reserved? haiz

hmm one of my wish is to meet Chris right now... but always no time... wanted to chat wit him more but his working...lolz... from his character his ok la but real person i dont know lo... well The Lord has a Will... so i leave it to Him... no point rushing... we jz hav so much in comman... hope to bring him to church one day...

one thing there's a funeral service jz few house beside my house... argh tonight is the last night... die la...

p/s: my blog is jz to type out all my feelings only... so i jz type wat i wanna say...

8th Sept

Yo ppl, having percubaan soon? all the best na. i started mine on Sunday... aiya BM n BC essay bahagian 2 sucks la don really know how to do also... sad la... anyways i got nothing much to blog about this days... hmm... malas juga wanna blog... wait till some interesting event then i only blog la... all the best for SPM n PMR students... GBU

5th Sept

Hi ppl, b4 i start my blog today i wanna wish u all a blessed Sabbath in Advance... hmm alone at home whole day didnt do anything also... patutnya study but lazy la. sleep till puas only i woke up then normal routine... terus online, but so cacat one my computer. then lunch also didnt eat much la. took few slice of bread only. the whether was rather cooling so i go sleep again... fren kacau pulak ... too bad i no credit to kacau back... wat was in my mind? hmm save money to reload or save money for other use? yeah lo, im planin to go somewhere so i saving money for it also... life hav been juz rather miserable for me lately... no one to talk to( which i know i can talk to God)... at home also so quiet. wanna go out but not the right time... cant wait till i finish my papers... no licence so sabar saje la...

aiya u mention that got ppl like me but i don wan... hmm tha person like me but i don like that person wat can i do oh? paksa myself to like him meh? no wat kan? no use one... aiya u also taken d la say me some more... wat la u... i know im not as lucky like some ppl la... lolz

wat im w8ing for nw is miracle la... hahaha God's will... Lots of things coming in... i don know la... i leave it to God completely...

4 Sept

haha im blogging here again. I didnt go school today coz im lazy. haiz i realize things changing lately huh? dont u feel that? wat i do also its not a good thing hmm. didnt talk to him also kena pulak. if i didnt talk to u if there any wrong? Y u always hav to put him in that situation? don care wether u jokin or not but it doesnt work k. instead of jokin jadi la arguing. y everytime i talk to u also hav to argue? kan bagus if u jz keep quite like few weeks b4? aint that good? until today i still don understand wat u are thinking. i got my own thinking too. whether i let go or not its my problem, yet u always say i(me) this i that... will things be as normal as b4 if im gone? lolz u wan it that way? Easy... lolz... hmm im already also planin to leave soon also, but i wont inform you all. since u all didnt care whether im thre or not also, i feel that i go or not make no differents. but for sure after SPM im gone. where? not sure... since most of us also leaving soon. so i also leave la. since i dont belong there anyway... my time effort have been forgotten.

Lately meet some new frens too... happy with that... yet i still wan to get closer to some frens that i love. even tho sometimes he/she dont reply my sms but i always think of them... is that hard jz to reply one single sms? yeah some ppl say they lazy to reply. so no point i msg those who lazy to reply also. i think i need to choose a new way of living. im sick of most of wat im doing. damn. who cares if im lost? some ppl jz dont appreciat wat i do la, or 4give wat i did also. well its ok, don wan to 4give me then nvm la. as if i can die without your 4giveness. dont think u so great. im happy of wat i am now. im independent n i don need to depends on others. yet i dont like to depends on other also.

i hope to be a total change person after SPM+ NS... cant w8 for it to and end then im gonna be so damn free that i can keep my nails long, no need to worry abt my hair n wat i wear too, huahuahua... wah after SPM im gonna do this n that, too long to list... hmm patient is all i need now. 2 more months. yet percubaan is starting soon also... wat to do? study n do my best lo... wan a bright future too... as for love life? hmm step by step lo... think so easy meh? must be SDA some more... God knows la... Like someone also susah, ppl like also susah... rather flirt around 1st ahahaah yeah im that kind of person, rather get close than to be in a relationship... so if u interested in me, pls be a SDA or else i will jadikan u SDA hahaha no la Joking la.... jz be frenz lo. slowly no rush... get to know me 1st...

hmm kinda bored now alone at home, raining... don know wat to do also... study d...haiz
till my nex post...

Gua Tempurung

It was merdeka day when we go to IPOH Gua Tempurung... we went on the bus abt 8 plus? head count so on then we leave to Gua. the journey was rather normal cz pastor was in the bus yet not much youth, so when we reach there it was raining ... we didnt waste time and go straight into the Gua, wao i tell u the Gua was awesome. The water was chilling, marble as i said nice wei... we walk on water with our tourch light. up and down, go till so low, damn syiok... at a point we stop and off our light and guess wat, we cant even see a thing. then we walk walk walk. then we walk up to a place where we hav to slide down a slope which i was kinda scared of it but amazingly i did it huahuahua... then add in another lubang pulak... after that we went to the interesting part, wao the walks of the Gua was so kinda dirty hahah i kinda sign my name there hahah... the Gua was full of intersting pattern, there were patern such as sea horse, fish, old man's face, nice part was there a place where the chilling wind blow. we did saw a love shape too, too bad i don hav a camera if not i will really love to show it. up and down, here and there there were lots of lots of story abt it too. we even saw crystal too... hahahah well im not sure whether u can understand or not but all i can say is that it was a awesome trip and i love it but now pulak body aching hahah... till we meet again
chaoz

wat im goin through now

I know its not easy to forgive someone who did a big mistake. but i don know y i always get the blame from the things i did... yeah right... i believe in people that tot im a looser that u go tell someone else wat i told u? wat are trust for? man hw hurting is that yeah u didnt get the blame huh? think wat? being close to him means wat huh? dream la... yeah yeah im a looser, i never shud hav been there at the 1st place, now i regret and i wanna get lost, i don wan to see them anymore, not all one everyone that i know, except some ppl that understands me... haiz some ppl jz so don know how to say la, they jz don know what they doing. yeah i did my mistake too but the thing is im stoping is already and u coming to bring up that stupid damn old fucking ass shit thingy... so fun is it? will u jz stop it? don act as if u so good. im really upset for quite sometimes d not bcz im alone but cz of my choice.. sometimes i wonder why God wan to do this to me? is that a test for me? yet ist not funny and i hate it. its going around again don u think? sometimes things are jz too personal tat i don wan to tell u thats y, so don even bother to ask me. watever i did im sorry la. my bad. but don worry... you all will jz w8 and see whats gonna happen next( lolz as if im goona do something bad like what? don know, lolz)
haiz, sucks la hate it damn fucking life... thats for now, new blogs soon
signing out
chaoz