14 Sept

Today was Science paper 1 n 2, ok lo can do la. 5 more papers to go. Get to chat abit abt guys with Lim n Chen... Hmm y guys hav to pujuk gurls leh? hmm how i wish i got one...

i hav a fren, his name is *****, we chat alot. hav common interest. Yeah not bad over all. wonder if i get to meet him? ^^ , he doesnt really online but i want to know him more... kinda miss chatting with him. i wish i could talk to him when im sad... but we only get to chat online... well how i wish i could tell u i miss you.. but no matter wat happen pls do take care of yourself k. Will see u online when we online together again...

13th September

( that my mom carrying her outside the house)

hey since my baby cousin is born for almost 2 months yet she is so "chubi"... her name is yun... i call her yun yun... she looks juz like my aunty... my mom was carrying her so take the peluang to snap 1 pic hahah... cute cute cute

13th September

Was not really a good day after all.... So sad our beloved Uncle John left us... Went to their house yesterday and today for the final service so means no church for us today... went to bukit gantung... sing few songs... that atmosphere was so saddening, i don wan to cry bahh yet cannot tahan d everyone was like **snift** **snift**, praveena was like shouting "papa, come back, dont go" haiz sad for her leaving to Russia soon... haiz... after that Mrs Chan belanja makan... Vegetarian for lunch... argh, but jz eat la. after that went home...
reach home also so no mood d... wanna blow up...

Mom say don let me go Youth Alive... Im saving money for it d bah... but never mind i still can go after SPM... lolz talking abt SPM. 2 more weeks to go... 8 more papers... haiz... 2molo no paper so can rest la... Monday is Science... haiz... so many things i wanna do but seems like my time also all clashing one... whats the heck is that OMG darn...

Lolz i wanted to sleep juz now, was hopin that it rains but i was like inside a oven, even tho i hav 2 fans blowing towards me but i still feel so hot like what nia... then i woke up see see raining... sengaja wake me up ka? lolz... tot of eating the swiss roll dad bought yesterday, damn was finish by lit bro, no reserved? haiz

hmm one of my wish is to meet Chris right now... but always no time... wanted to chat wit him more but his working...lolz... from his character his ok la but real person i dont know lo... well The Lord has a Will... so i leave it to Him... no point rushing... we jz hav so much in comman... hope to bring him to church one day...

one thing there's a funeral service jz few house beside my house... argh tonight is the last night... die la...

p/s: my blog is jz to type out all my feelings only... so i jz type wat i wanna say...

8th Sept

Yo ppl, having percubaan soon? all the best na. i started mine on Sunday... aiya BM n BC essay bahagian 2 sucks la don really know how to do also... sad la... anyways i got nothing much to blog about this days... hmm... malas juga wanna blog... wait till some interesting event then i only blog la... all the best for SPM n PMR students... GBU

5th Sept

Hi ppl, b4 i start my blog today i wanna wish u all a blessed Sabbath in Advance... hmm alone at home whole day didnt do anything also... patutnya study but lazy la. sleep till puas only i woke up then normal routine... terus online, but so cacat one my computer. then lunch also didnt eat much la. took few slice of bread only. the whether was rather cooling so i go sleep again... fren kacau pulak ... too bad i no credit to kacau back... wat was in my mind? hmm save money to reload or save money for other use? yeah lo, im planin to go somewhere so i saving money for it also... life hav been juz rather miserable for me lately... no one to talk to( which i know i can talk to God)... at home also so quiet. wanna go out but not the right time... cant wait till i finish my papers... no licence so sabar saje la...

aiya u mention that got ppl like me but i don wan... hmm tha person like me but i don like that person wat can i do oh? paksa myself to like him meh? no wat kan? no use one... aiya u also taken d la say me some more... wat la u... i know im not as lucky like some ppl la... lolz

wat im w8ing for nw is miracle la... hahaha God's will... Lots of things coming in... i don know la... i leave it to God completely...

4 Sept

haha im blogging here again. I didnt go school today coz im lazy. haiz i realize things changing lately huh? dont u feel that? wat i do also its not a good thing hmm. didnt talk to him also kena pulak. if i didnt talk to u if there any wrong? Y u always hav to put him in that situation? don care wether u jokin or not but it doesnt work k. instead of jokin jadi la arguing. y everytime i talk to u also hav to argue? kan bagus if u jz keep quite like few weeks b4? aint that good? until today i still don understand wat u are thinking. i got my own thinking too. whether i let go or not its my problem, yet u always say i(me) this i that... will things be as normal as b4 if im gone? lolz u wan it that way? Easy... lolz... hmm im already also planin to leave soon also, but i wont inform you all. since u all didnt care whether im thre or not also, i feel that i go or not make no differents. but for sure after SPM im gone. where? not sure... since most of us also leaving soon. so i also leave la. since i dont belong there anyway... my time effort have been forgotten.

Lately meet some new frens too... happy with that... yet i still wan to get closer to some frens that i love. even tho sometimes he/she dont reply my sms but i always think of them... is that hard jz to reply one single sms? yeah some ppl say they lazy to reply. so no point i msg those who lazy to reply also. i think i need to choose a new way of living. im sick of most of wat im doing. damn. who cares if im lost? some ppl jz dont appreciat wat i do la, or 4give wat i did also. well its ok, don wan to 4give me then nvm la. as if i can die without your 4giveness. dont think u so great. im happy of wat i am now. im independent n i don need to depends on others. yet i dont like to depends on other also.

i hope to be a total change person after SPM+ NS... cant w8 for it to and end then im gonna be so damn free that i can keep my nails long, no need to worry abt my hair n wat i wear too, huahuahua... wah after SPM im gonna do this n that, too long to list... hmm patient is all i need now. 2 more months. yet percubaan is starting soon also... wat to do? study n do my best lo... wan a bright future too... as for love life? hmm step by step lo... think so easy meh? must be SDA some more... God knows la... Like someone also susah, ppl like also susah... rather flirt around 1st ahahaah yeah im that kind of person, rather get close than to be in a relationship... so if u interested in me, pls be a SDA or else i will jadikan u SDA hahaha no la Joking la.... jz be frenz lo. slowly no rush... get to know me 1st...

hmm kinda bored now alone at home, raining... don know wat to do also... study d...haiz
till my nex post...

Gua Tempurung

It was merdeka day when we go to IPOH Gua Tempurung... we went on the bus abt 8 plus? head count so on then we leave to Gua. the journey was rather normal cz pastor was in the bus yet not much youth, so when we reach there it was raining ... we didnt waste time and go straight into the Gua, wao i tell u the Gua was awesome. The water was chilling, marble as i said nice wei... we walk on water with our tourch light. up and down, go till so low, damn syiok... at a point we stop and off our light and guess wat, we cant even see a thing. then we walk walk walk. then we walk up to a place where we hav to slide down a slope which i was kinda scared of it but amazingly i did it huahuahua... then add in another lubang pulak... after that we went to the interesting part, wao the walks of the Gua was so kinda dirty hahah i kinda sign my name there hahah... the Gua was full of intersting pattern, there were patern such as sea horse, fish, old man's face, nice part was there a place where the chilling wind blow. we did saw a love shape too, too bad i don hav a camera if not i will really love to show it. up and down, here and there there were lots of lots of story abt it too. we even saw crystal too... hahahah well im not sure whether u can understand or not but all i can say is that it was a awesome trip and i love it but now pulak body aching hahah... till we meet again
chaoz