You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

A song from HANNAH MONTANA THE MOVIE... Was quite touching, GOsh Lucas Till? Damn cute wei.. But Its almost fathers day. Not much of a good memories with my dad... hmm wish my dad could be like Miley's Dad... T.T

Boredome

Yoh. everyday at home quite bored also hor? Sleep late, wake up late.... lol... wanna go work but lazy... then i hav to go also la. promise already bah... work till end of the month then go AYC. 1st time i go AYC... Lol then lepak in KL before i go KL... not sure whether im going to Poli or KTAC... But i surrender all to God. He knows the best.. I need the encouragement to work man... lol... No licences yet... yet those who have licence also didnt drive then no point getting those licence also what... ish... geram... friend also got licence d... ish ish ish... Why like that? lol now ppl change d la, last time so good now pilih kasih d... Ish why i care? make me geram only... rather choose not to see them la since im going to study already... cant wait... i'll wait, dont worry.... i can handle it... Im tough remember? i can go through all this because i've been through already.... Thank God for that

Today did science paper. Went out with Lai, she drove her mom's car without licence, dang... I dont even dare. Phew...Went to that "jerk" house, just pass by his house. Man he is such a cheater bug... hahah... lolz I need to relax man, my dogs are too noisy, i need to go to place where i can be near to nature, sound of flowing water, birds, tress... Havent been well lately... What to do? Or maybe i need to read some books, listen to some soft music. Dang but my dog is way too noisy for it...

Current mood
-Sad?
-Not in a good mood
-Lazy
-wanna do something but dont know what
-slightly pissed off but not angry
- miss some frens

Was crying half way while you call... At that time you were not the one i want to talk to. i was already talking to someone before you call..sorry. Im just expressing my sadness so i just cry it out coz i don't want to keep it inside, it hurts if i dont cry it out. I dont anyone to know that i cried... Yeah i've been emotional lately. I need time to be alone and i do need some insturmental music to calm down my mood. Guess i will take another half to 1 year to heal this bleeding wound again, its just not my year. The guys i fall for will nvr fall for me. But for me to let go of him right now is not easy. I miss his everything, miss his messages, his voice T.T... haiz... Im suppose to hang out with friends so that im happy but due to SPM all cannot go out or no transport. hmm no worries 6 more days of paper. ^^ December is coming soon woo hoo

Let's see
- After SPM - Kulim Church Member go Dr Chew's hs
- Dye my hair - yes will do but what colour?
- Ay Camp - yes im going
- KL - Is mom gonna let me go?
- X'Mas - aint in the mood for that
- National Service - New frens... etc
- Bday - 4get about it

It was last 2 night, i msg him telling him that i miss him and i cut my hand, at night when i was sitting on the sofa looking outside, i felt that it was his bike passing my house, my bro said that it was a Lagenda X but im not sure, i got a feeling that its him, but he still ignore me. I really do miss him, but no point missing him anymore. What a jerk. He cheated my feelings... T.T... Totally ignore me, my calls, my sms... I know he will read but ok, i will take it as his credit expired and i will never msg him for the mean time... I will see what happened after SPM... As for the next paper i may not gonna see him anymore due to that his in science stream so different paper. Haiz. Make me miss him more...I wont hate him but since he ignore me i might as well also ignore him and pray for him... God knows what im doing...
But i know God is good all the time and His always beside me. I need YOU, LORD...

today went to school also waste time only. most of the student went for ceramah, tomorrow is our turn(chinese & indian) bringing my phone to school. new phone not bad, nice to use lo. love it. suppose to get a ride home but wait till pek chek d so don wan d la. seeing those ppl whom i don like also geram d, so end up walk home la. then came Lai Kuen and Thiva. for what? dont care la. dad went meeting. so left me bro n mom at home. simple dinner. facebook saw shaun's profile so added him, yet with Youth Alive picture! make me feel so T.T coz cannot go...

Guess the PMR students are having much fun in Youth Alive now. Too bad mom didnt let me go. Haiz. Stuck home go church. They all have fun with all the friends in Youth Alive. hahah =.=''' haiz. nothing much happen w8ing for my phone and wanting to buy new pants and shirt for New Year.. phew cant w8

It was just a normal chat and suddenly bump into a....... "BOOK"..........starting as Julia, Abraham and Fanny. Each represent a person which i don know to name them. But only Julia and Abraham knows this, Fanny was not there but somehow invlove. It was rather a triangle love story. Cant said it's fighting. Julia just hope all the best for Fanny and Abraham. 3 of them will be good friends. Abraham and Fanny was closer before Julia came in. But due to some problem, Fanny and Arbraham both argeed to take one step back. Both girl was jealous. Julia dont know who to trust but after talking to Abraham, Julia decided to trust Abraham. But still Abraham and Fanny is closer compared to Julia. Abraham told Julia to take him as a friend. Yet Julia was so sad that she tell herself maybe she shouldnt like Abraham at the first place. Abraham sort of told Julia that she make a few wrong choice and hope that Julia wont repeat it again.. Wao, thats really hurting but thats the trust i think? (*snift*snift*) Think Julia will slowly let go of Abraham somehow and wish all the best for her to good freinds...


Note to Abraham : Julia will slowly let you go and wont want to be in the middle of this and will take you as friends. ( Friends are Friends forever) will see you soon...

Its a true story....

Walk back from school alone, the wheather was rather cloudy... Reach home, didnt see any packet of food, which means mom didnt buy lunch for me lo. So i cook "Mi Sedap" sambil makan sambil check mail. Check half way got IM from ronald. Long time didnt talk to him in MSN d. So chit chat abit, talking about how am i, so on... But so far not much of them talk to me also la. Well cannot call or sms ( No Phone) at least a card? Email? hmm, actually one thing about AY is that (my own view, not mend to offend anyone) AY seems to miss communicate with people around them and cost them to feel like how i feel... example: how you guys ever ask Melody Tan why she left AY? I guess i feel the same as her also. Dont just think for yourself. Lol as if im so pro to tell people this? Im only 17. Sorry if i offended anyone. Just telling the truth. Whoever read my blog they will know what im going through now. AS for now, i think i will come after SPM...

I wonder if anyone reads my blog? hmm Its doesnt matter, guess no one understand what im crapping anyways. 2 more weeks till SPM, how nice if i could relax? haha but no way. So good they can go YouTh Alive... When i ask them, they all said dont know, not sure, depends. See now? What the heck is this man. Pissed off!!! Well, i got my own point of view, so what if i can go? It makes no difference at all. Since people are forgetting me already, i also wanna get lost already. I dont feel that i belong to that group anymore. Some more call friends? Naah dont think so. Think i should call them "someone whom i know"...
Life is not easy after all. Everyone knows that. You may face all sort of problems, is just the matter of how you look at it. Yeah i know im different from you'll. I think differently. Hmm for those who know me, they haven't really know the real me(maybe?)
Trust? Hmm who should i trust when I don't know the truth? Yeah the truth hurts. But thanks for telling me that also la (to who ever know she is). Where to place my trust? I don't know la. Just don't wanna talk about them too much. I guess i need to let go after all? Any comment from reader? or any wise though? Share with me. Thx

Who should i trust? you or you? why do i get different story from both of you? is there something that you both are hiding from me? hmm sometimes its better that i dont know too much, makes me sad if i know the truth. Should i let go? Or Keep it 1st? lol 23 days till SPM. Cant w8. Im gonna do this and that wooh oo...
Dont think im joining the AY camp also, but will see how things work. see if got anyone can convince me to go not?...
2molo church, guess im gonna play tha piano again huh? (wonder when only can get a piano)... Another week gone. Well at least i got a study schedule... bored man. Got to stand firm. Even though there are some things that i want but i cant get. But i know God still loves me right?