Today did science paper. Went out with Lai, she drove her mom's car without licence, dang... I dont even dare. Phew...Went to that "jerk" house, just pass by his house. Man he is such a cheater bug... hahah... lolz I need to relax man, my dogs are too noisy, i need to go to place where i can be near to nature, sound of flowing water, birds, tress... Havent been well lately... What to do? Or maybe i need to read some books, listen to some soft music. Dang but my dog is way too noisy for it...

Current mood
-Sad?
-Not in a good mood
-Lazy
-wanna do something but dont know what
-slightly pissed off but not angry
- miss some frens

Was crying half way while you call... At that time you were not the one i want to talk to. i was already talking to someone before you call..sorry. Im just expressing my sadness so i just cry it out coz i don't want to keep it inside, it hurts if i dont cry it out. I dont anyone to know that i cried... Yeah i've been emotional lately. I need time to be alone and i do need some insturmental music to calm down my mood. Guess i will take another half to 1 year to heal this bleeding wound again, its just not my year. The guys i fall for will nvr fall for me. But for me to let go of him right now is not easy. I miss his everything, miss his messages, his voice T.T... haiz... Im suppose to hang out with friends so that im happy but due to SPM all cannot go out or no transport. hmm no worries 6 more days of paper. ^^ December is coming soon woo hoo

Let's see
- After SPM - Kulim Church Member go Dr Chew's hs
- Dye my hair - yes will do but what colour?
- Ay Camp - yes im going
- KL - Is mom gonna let me go?
- X'Mas - aint in the mood for that
- National Service - New frens... etc
- Bday - 4get about it

Loving my phone!!! huahuahu... Phew. so bored lately, teacher also didnt teach d. COuntdown to SPM man.
Haiz i email you all but only got 1 reply one. so sad la.

DEC:
- Dye my hair
- Ay Camp?
- Go KL
- Advance Birthday Party
- Andrea leaving
- PLKN ( National Service) Where?
- Christmas Celebration
- New Year 2009 ( should be in NS by that time?)

Haiz

Guess the PMR students are having much fun in Youth Alive now. Too bad mom didnt let me go. Haiz. Stuck home go church. They all have fun with all the friends in Youth Alive. hahah =.=''' haiz. nothing much happen w8ing for my phone and wanting to buy new pants and shirt for New Year.. phew cant w8

It was just a normal chat and suddenly bump into a....... "BOOK"..........starting as Julia, Abraham and Fanny. Each represent a person which i don know to name them. But only Julia and Abraham knows this, Fanny was not there but somehow invlove. It was rather a triangle love story. Cant said it's fighting. Julia just hope all the best for Fanny and Abraham. 3 of them will be good friends. Abraham and Fanny was closer before Julia came in. But due to some problem, Fanny and Arbraham both argeed to take one step back. Both girl was jealous. Julia dont know who to trust but after talking to Abraham, Julia decided to trust Abraham. But still Abraham and Fanny is closer compared to Julia. Abraham told Julia to take him as a friend. Yet Julia was so sad that she tell herself maybe she shouldnt like Abraham at the first place. Abraham sort of told Julia that she make a few wrong choice and hope that Julia wont repeat it again.. Wao, thats really hurting but thats the trust i think? (*snift*snift*) Think Julia will slowly let go of Abraham somehow and wish all the best for her to good freinds...


Note to Abraham : Julia will slowly let you go and wont want to be in the middle of this and will take you as friends. ( Friends are Friends forever) will see you soon...

Its a true story....

WHat can i say? 10 out of 40 students? Cool huh? But its nice to study under that kind of sutuation, especially during maths period, asked Liyana to teach me some stupid Q which i don understand...I was feeling slighty abit dizzy during class. What a day. Eat extra today, seems like i got such good apptite,Pi Yu and Yi Han didnt come (leave me alone in school / they lazy to come). Before class, nothing to do so went to talk to form teacher and guess what? I got CEMERLANG for my kelakuan for my SIJIL BERHENTI SEKOLAH (pssst: dont tell anyone). Disayang oleh form Teacher hauhuahua. His a guy... Lolx. During last period (BM) Thiva was making Lai Kuen jealous by saying " I love you" to me outside the class coz teacher not teaching, crazy, but i just smile. His funny anyway, they are not together, I think Thiva is only joking with Lai Kuen but seems like she's taking it seriously but she is not admitting it. Dont bother much about it. Walk home, weather was rather windy. Upon reaching home Lai happen to be driving a motorbike and asked me to follow her but i just shake my hand and she went. At home, no lunch, was feeling dizzy again, after finish checking mail, went to rest. Half way rainy, got up and unplug all the soket. Went back to bed till 6. As usual open the gate for mom. Watch abit of TV, get some file transfer of SCIENCE from Jerome. After that went to bed and told mom not to cook dinner. (COUSIN)Bro in law came to fix the main cable coz yesterday somehow the lighthing strick and the cable was burned. After fixing, dad sent him back ( his car is still in the workshop due to the accident ) sambil tapau dinner. Now waiting for dinner. So get to rest from studying today which means 2molo will have to study 2 subject... 2 more week... T.T ...

Walk back from school alone, the wheather was rather cloudy... Reach home, didnt see any packet of food, which means mom didnt buy lunch for me lo. So i cook "Mi Sedap" sambil makan sambil check mail. Check half way got IM from ronald. Long time didnt talk to him in MSN d. So chit chat abit, talking about how am i, so on... But so far not much of them talk to me also la. Well cannot call or sms ( No Phone) at least a card? Email? hmm, actually one thing about AY is that (my own view, not mend to offend anyone) AY seems to miss communicate with people around them and cost them to feel like how i feel... example: how you guys ever ask Melody Tan why she left AY? I guess i feel the same as her also. Dont just think for yourself. Lol as if im so pro to tell people this? Im only 17. Sorry if i offended anyone. Just telling the truth. Whoever read my blog they will know what im going through now. AS for now, i think i will come after SPM...

I wonder if anyone reads my blog? hmm Its doesnt matter, guess no one understand what im crapping anyways. 2 more weeks till SPM, how nice if i could relax? haha but no way. So good they can go YouTh Alive... When i ask them, they all said dont know, not sure, depends. See now? What the heck is this man. Pissed off!!! Well, i got my own point of view, so what if i can go? It makes no difference at all. Since people are forgetting me already, i also wanna get lost already. I dont feel that i belong to that group anymore. Some more call friends? Naah dont think so. Think i should call them "someone whom i know"...
Life is not easy after all. Everyone knows that. You may face all sort of problems, is just the matter of how you look at it. Yeah i know im different from you'll. I think differently. Hmm for those who know me, they haven't really know the real me(maybe?)
Trust? Hmm who should i trust when I don't know the truth? Yeah the truth hurts. But thanks for telling me that also la (to who ever know she is). Where to place my trust? I don't know la. Just don't wanna talk about them too much. I guess i need to let go after all? Any comment from reader? or any wise though? Share with me. Thx