Boredome

Yoh. everyday at home quite bored also hor? Sleep late, wake up late.... lol... wanna go work but lazy... then i hav to go also la. promise already bah... work till end of the month then go AYC. 1st time i go AYC... Lol then lepak in KL before i go KL... not sure whether im going to Poli or KTAC... But i surrender all to God. He knows the best.. I need the encouragement to work man... lol... No licences yet... yet those who have licence also didnt drive then no point getting those licence also what... ish... geram... friend also got licence d... ish ish ish... Why like that? lol now ppl change d la, last time so good now pilih kasih d... Ish why i care? make me geram only... rather choose not to see them la since im going to study already... cant wait... i'll wait, dont worry.... i can handle it... Im tough remember? i can go through all this because i've been through already.... Thank God for that

Current mood
-Sad?
-Not in a good mood
-Lazy
-wanna do something but dont know what
-slightly pissed off but not angry
- miss some frens

Was crying half way while you call... At that time you were not the one i want to talk to. i was already talking to someone before you call..sorry. Im just expressing my sadness so i just cry it out coz i don't want to keep it inside, it hurts if i dont cry it out. I dont anyone to know that i cried... Yeah i've been emotional lately. I need time to be alone and i do need some insturmental music to calm down my mood. Guess i will take another half to 1 year to heal this bleeding wound again, its just not my year. The guys i fall for will nvr fall for me. But for me to let go of him right now is not easy. I miss his everything, miss his messages, his voice T.T... haiz... Im suppose to hang out with friends so that im happy but due to SPM all cannot go out or no transport. hmm no worries 6 more days of paper. ^^ December is coming soon woo hoo

Let's see
- After SPM - Kulim Church Member go Dr Chew's hs
- Dye my hair - yes will do but what colour?
- Ay Camp - yes im going
- KL - Is mom gonna let me go?
- X'Mas - aint in the mood for that
- National Service - New frens... etc
- Bday - 4get about it

It was last 2 night, i msg him telling him that i miss him and i cut my hand, at night when i was sitting on the sofa looking outside, i felt that it was his bike passing my house, my bro said that it was a Lagenda X but im not sure, i got a feeling that its him, but he still ignore me. I really do miss him, but no point missing him anymore. What a jerk. He cheated my feelings... T.T... Totally ignore me, my calls, my sms... I know he will read but ok, i will take it as his credit expired and i will never msg him for the mean time... I will see what happened after SPM... As for the next paper i may not gonna see him anymore due to that his in science stream so different paper. Haiz. Make me miss him more...I wont hate him but since he ignore me i might as well also ignore him and pray for him... God knows what im doing...
But i know God is good all the time and His always beside me. I need YOU, LORD...